"My child, don't lose sight of common sense and discernment. Hang on to them, for they will refresh your soul. They are like jewels on a necklace. They keep you safe on your way,and your feet will not stumble. You can go to bed without fear; you will lie down soundly."
Proverbs 3:21-24
Holy cow people...transition and change are evil twins. These past three days have been the weirdest, most draining, absolutely fantastic days. Yes-all three of those combined.
My first night was the hardest night I have ever had...ever...in my life...EVER. I was convinced that I had made the most tragic mistake of my life. I was ready to pack my little CR-V up at 2:23 a.m. and drive all the way back to Kansas City. I figured I was not in the best frame of mind and eventually fell asleep, but when I woke up nothing had changed in my sad little head. I found myself on the phone with my parents, BEGGING them to call SBU to get our money back and enroll me in classes in one of the Metropolitan community colleges. I was completely ready to throw out the window all that my family and I went through to get me here. I was too busy letting Satan seep into my mind and take over my thoughts, emotions, and actions to remember all that God has taught me these past few months.
That He is able.
That He is strong.
That He is all-knowing.
That He is never ceasing.
That He LOVES ME.
How sweet are those thoughts above the thoughts that Satan places in our heads? Yet, so easily I give him control of my actions.
This takes me to Proverbs 3:21...
"Don't lose sight of common sense and DISCERNMENT."
I cannot count how many times I fail to discern whose voice is inside of my head. Why would I so easily believe that Christ would want me anywhere but here, when for months I have known that this is where He has called me to be? I let fear of the unknown overpower the peace in knowing that God is in control.
Which all leads me to yesterday evening and today.
Complete. Peace.
Peace that comes only from Jesus.
Peace that covers me.
Peace that brings tears of joy to my eyes.
HOW GREAT IS MY KING?!
He knows me and He loves me and He cares for me and He wants the best for me and He COMFORTS me. My God doesn't leave me hanging. He doesn't make me figure things out on my own.
HE LOVES ME AND WANTS THE BEST FOR ME.
Last night was easily one of the most fun nights of this whole past year. Two words: dance party.
Yes, yes, I am at a Baptist school....so let's just call it a "moving back and forth, looking ridiculous, grooving like a white girl" party.
Today just echoed the fun and joy from yesterday, although it contained less white girl grooving.
Today I got to serve in the Bolivar community, experience my first college football game, and hang out with some amazing new friends. He blessed me with the sweetest of RAs and one fantastic lady who knows just what I am transitioning through. I have been able to be MYSELF which is so precious and important to me. And I am THANKFUL.
My Lord provides. Even if all it takes is putting people in my path, He knows just what I need.
How sweet it is to be loved by Him, known by Him, and cared for by Him.
"Hang on to them, for the will refresh your soul."
Proverbs 3:22
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