Five Days

Five days.

That is all that is left of life as I know it. Five days from a new bed, new walls, new city, new environment, new people. Five days from leaving my family, job, DOG, friends. It seems so surreal now, but I know reality is waiting just around the corner, ready to slap me in the face. HARD. In five days.

The question of the month has seemed to be "so how nervous are you?". Well, not nervous at all. I can honestly and fully say that my nerves have not been messed with a single bit. Anxiety, stress, panic attacks, absolute joy, fear, excitement....now that's a different story. I feel as though I have been strapped into the front seat of a roller coaster against my will and my emotions are completely out of my control. I go from happy to sad in the blink of an eye and even I am shocked by it.

But the one thing that has seemed to squash every one of these emotions is peace. Overwhelming peace. The knowledge that my Creator has a plan and a purpose for my life. The knowledge that even when I feel out of control, He has complete control. The knowledge that He will hold me through tears, laughter, pain, sorrow, worry, and happiness. That is the only knowledge I need and it is that knowledge that will carry me through the first few days. 

The first few days which begin in five days.


"Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by Your truth and teach me, for You are the God who saves me. All day long i put my hope in You."
Psalm 25:4&5